Have you noticed that it is the most civilised gentlemen who have been the subtlest slaughterers, to whom the Attilas and Stenka Razins could not hold a candle, and if they are not so conspicuous as the Attilas and Stenka Razins it is simply because they are so often met with, are so ordinary and have become so familiar to us. My liver is bad, well--let it get worse!
The only gain of civilisation for mankind is the greater capacity for variety of sensations--and absolutely nothing more. You may, perhaps, have really suffered, but you have no respect for your own suffering. I am a spiteful man.
VI Oh, if I had done nothing simply from laziness! I have been going on like that moree a long time--twenty years. It would have been quite enough, for instance, to have the consciousness by which all so-called direct persons and men of action live.
Such confessions as I intend to make are never printed nor given to other people to read. And of course he knows himself that he is doing himself no sort of good with his moans; he knows better than anyone that he is only lacerating and harassing himself and others for nothing; he knows mote even the audience before whom he is making his efforts, and his whole family, listen to him with loathing, do not put mire ha'porth of faith in him, and inwardly understand that he might moan differently, more simply, without trills and flourishes, and that he is only amusing himself like that from ill-humour, from malignancy.
Which is worse? In fact, those will be halcyon days. While if you stick to consciousness, even though the same result is attained, you can at least flog yourself at times, and that will, at any rate, liven you up. Besides, I am extremely superstitious, sufficiently so to respect medicine, anyway I am well-educated enough not to be superstitious, but I am superstitious.
Japanese sex contacts Oklahoma And what le you to the conclusion that man's inclinations NEED reforming? But I feel sure that you are again imagining that I am joking. The worst of it is, look at it which way one will, it still turns out that I was always the most to blame in everything. But of the uppish ones there was one officer in particular I could not endure.
A wall, you see, is a wall And what was worst of all, I thought it actually stupid looking, and I would have been quite satisfied if I could have looked intelligent.
That you probably will not understand. Logically it does seem to follow from his arguments. I went out of the tavern straight home, confused and troubled, and the next night I went out again with the same lewd intentions, still more furtively, abjectly and miserably than before, as it were, with tears in my eyes--but still I did go out again. Oh, but even mlre I am lying!
It is a form, an empty form--I shall never have readers. Reason only knows what it has succeeded in learning some things, perhaps, it will never learn; this is a poor comfort, but why not say so frankly? They say work makes man kind-hearted and honest. VII But these are all golden dreams.
As far as my personal opinion is concerned, to care only for well-being seems to me positively ill-bred. I had only to protest and I certainly would have been thrown out of the window. Moral obliquity and consequently lack of good sense; for it has long been accepted that lack of good sense is due to no other cause than moral obliquity. The impossible means the stone wall! What is the result of it in the end?
Now I ask you: what can be expected of man since he is a being endowed with strange qualities? We, in Russia, have no fools; that is well known. Now, when I am not only recalling them, but have actually decided to write mabe of them, I want to try the experiment whether one can, even with oneself, be perfectly open and not take fright at the whole truth.
You are mistaken in that, too. Decide that for yourselves. What stone wall? Yes, into enjoyment, into enjoyment!
It was not only that I could not become spiteful, I did not textiing how to become anything; neither spiteful nor kind, neither a rascal nor an honest man, neither a hero nor an insect. Though it was hardly a stroll so much as a series of innumerable miseries, humiliations and resentments; but no doubt that was just what I wanted. In short, one may say anything about mayne history of the world--anything that might enter the most disordered imagination.
The romantic is always Hortolandia wv hookers getting fucked, and I only meant to observe that although we have had foolish romantics they don't count, and they were only so because in the flower of their youth they degenerated into Germans, and to preserve their precious jewel more comfortably, settled somewhere out there--by preference in Weimar or the Black Forest.
I was rude and took pleasure in being so. Maybe it will begin to revenge itself, too, but, as it were, piecemeal, in trivial ways, from behind the stove, incognito, without believing either in its own right to vengeance, or in the success of its revenge, knowing that from all its efforts at revenge it will suffer a hundred times more than he on whom it revenges itself, while he, I daresay, will not even scratch himself.
I visited various obscure haunts.